Schizophrenia :O

Okay i think my disorder is getting worse, but i'm not so sure. Well err, aaaa yeah. First of all, here's what Schizophrenia means. Just check this link and read if you're not lazy, well you probably are lazy aren't you?
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001925/ Susah nak explain, cause you guys wont get it. I wanna tell you but i dont know how to explain my condition. So we have 2 problems here. I'm not good at these types of things, sorry. -_________-

Me habitos. lol

The title doesn't really mean anything actually, i'm gonna post some stupid random stuff about me tonight. Hmm, so let's start. When i'm in a very and i really mean very very very cold place, the end of my fingers will start to itch and my body will err, nanti ada bintik bintik. Second, one week mesti wajib at least 2 days i will have a flu or selsema. My usual outfit that i wear when i'm at home, is SHORTS and SHIRTS/TANK TOPS. So, if you wanna surprise me datang raya tanpa my permission, DONT! Nanti aku kena tukar baju cepat cepat, if you called earlier, i would've have a lot of time to change my outfit. Err, tu jela kot that i wanna type for tonight. Ohyaa! and and and and my proudest secret is, i have freakin ABS! Which is very cool, i just knew about it a few months ago. Looks like me exercising everyday have some advantages. Haha, great now i cant stop smiling. Okay, i'm crazy. Bye. -.-

Heh?!

So, i've come to the point where i feel like i ain't got a reason to live. It's like the same damn routine everyday! Plus i've got no ambition, so i dont know what to do in life. At first when i was like 7years old i want to be an art or english teacher and then i feel like that job is kinda boring so i changed my ambition to fashion designer but i dont think i'll succeed in that and i changed again to lecturer and i dont do well when it comes to talking so now i dont know what i wanna do when i grow up. It's between a lawyer or architect, but being a lawyer is hard work so maybe i'm stuck with architect then. Hmm. You see what i mean here?! I dont know what to do in life. Okay tu dari segi pendidikan, sekolah and kerja. What about dari segi socially? I failed socially, i just cant deal with people very well. Like i said before, I HATE PEOPLE! I cant stand them, especially the ones that i barely know and they want to start a conversation with me and being a total fake complimenting me and stuff, but after the "get to know each other" stage they're true colors start to show. Unlike those people, i tend to show my true colors then be nice to them. So who can deal with my attitude are the ones that i'm okay with, err paham? Okay that's about friends, what about love life? Pfft, pahleeese! Dont get me started, well i'm not gonna start anyway. I dont want to talk about that, i hate the word LOVE. Unless kena mengena dengan family i'm okay, but ahh you get what i'm saying here right? Good. Okay, dah takda mood nak type. Bye -.-

Shed some tears

Okay, so it's RAYAAA! and everyone is happy, laughing, and stuff. But not me, i've been crying more than one day, that's more than once, new record bebeh. Well, i've got a lot and i really mean a lot of problems lately and i'm kinda sensitive. Like people always say, the one with the temper are always the most sensitive one(i think). I've got a feeling that raya this year ain't gonna be as fun as it used to be. Lots of emosi going on here, and i can't handle this pressure. Nobody understand what i'm going trough, i just want to be all alone just for 1 week or more. So, guess my plan to be happy and all ain't working so well huh? Hmm, we'll just have to wait and see then. Okay pepol, Selamat Hari Raya, lots of love Shahira Mahirah ~

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Me, DYSLEXIA ?!

Well, first of all I'M NOT DYSLEXIC okay. Cuma there's a missunderstood situation, that's all, haha. Time tu belajar AGAMA, and i sit kat depaaaaaann sekali. and ustazah suruh buat latihan, and sambil tulis tu bersembang dengan Ayu. and  tersilap tulis "Latihan" jadi "Litahan" and i thought to myself "Aaaah, pi mampoih ehh!" and i continue writing again. Then ustazah asked everyone to pass up the work, and i wasn't done yet and i copied Ayu's answers and i accidentaly wrote "Penulis" "Penilus" and again i said to myself "Lantaklahh. -.- " and i pass it up. Then blablabla and ustazah called my name and asked "SM, PENILUS ni apa?" "Saya tersalah tulis la ustazah, sorry." and Ayu menyampuk "Ustazah cuba tengok atas tu, Latihan pon jadi  LITAHAN" then sutazah said "Kamu nak jumpa counselor tak? Kamu ada masalah ni" i was like WATAHEL? and i said "Manada ustazah, tu tersalah je. Saya time tu tengah sembang dengan Ayu sambil tulis lah ustazah." and ustazah continued "Jumpa counselor, kamu ada masalah." and me "TAKKK, saya takda masalah" ustazah "Kamu disleksia ke?" (MAIGOD, ME?) "Tak ustazah, saya boleh baca la. :/ " ustazah "Hmm, okok." and i tell Ayu about that incident and she laughed like hell after hearing it. and habis masa "Terima kasih ustazah" and i sayed for the last time at ustazah "Saya tak disleksia tau ustazah" and she just smiled at me. AHHHHH! i dont wanna be the known as the disleksia girl to Ustazah Adibah. I'M THE AWESOME SHAHIRA MAHIRAH for crying out loud. Sheesh! Ohyaa, nak cerita something that doesnt have anything to do with this.  Ustazah said to me while i was doing her exercise and she said SM, kamu ni kan nama je Shahira Mahirah tapi tak mahir langsung! you know why i wanna type about that? CAUSE I LOVE THAT MOMENT, hmm i dont know why. Haha.Well, hopefully ustazah believe me that i'm not dyslexic, if not next year dalam SMKPA's Yearbook my face will be in the disleksia class. Bhahah, SMILE ! :D

Shahira Mahirah Binti Mustafhkamal

I've got nothing to post anymore, so i decided to post about some of things that you maybe dont even know about Shahira Mahirah. Get ready to face the truth bebeh!

I hate people, i'm not friendly, i'm sensitive, i like to fantasize stupid situations, i usually dance and sing when i'm alone, I have low self confident, i'm obsessed with my hair, sometimes i hurt myself, i like talking to myself, i have an imaginary friend which is made up from my real friend but its imaginary(understandos?), i rather do guy stuff than girly stuff, once i did plan to kill myself, i hate it when i smile, i like staring and observing people, my brain always blackout for no reason, i want to cry for no reason but tak pernah terjadi, i hate myself sometimes, i hate making conversations because i dont know what to say, i have more than 3 personalities, i have thought of running away and go to some a mental hospital, i THINK i have Schizophrenia, i like people giving me nicknames although it sounds stupid, i love it when people say i'm WEIRD, CRAZY, FREAK, and more, the way i eat rice is different from other people, i like mixing food together and it turns out scrumptious, i have big eyes but i keep making a sleepy face, some of my relatives calls me GARFIELD because of my sleepy face, i hate making decisions and thinking, i'm lazy, i love cheese but only hot cheese not hot spicy but hot panas, i love fried chicken, i throw and break stuff when i'm mad, half the stuff that comes out my mouth doesnt even makes sence, no one can understand the way i think, i mostly like songs that have a deep meaning in the lyrics, sometimes i'm invincible to everyone and i hate that but sometimes i rather be invincible, i'm a racist especially towards INDIANS, i love the taste of blood, sometimes disgusting stuff looks fun to me, i hate being the same as other people, i feel like punching someone's face when they misspelled my name, i cant remember stuff so well, it takes me more than 2 minutes to tell what time it is, i love seeing other people suffer and
 I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO TYPE.